I am a twenty first century witch. Or so they say. Perennially afraid. Of everything and everyone. And those voice never go away. No matter how much medication I take. I will test your empathy to the limits and probably end up jumping off a roof. I do not belong here on this planet, in this place, in this time.  I know it and everyone who has the misfortune to encounter me knows it, even though they rarely say it. I do not belong. I never have and I never will.  This is not self pity and it is nobody’s fault.  It is a morally neutral fact. Let’s just imagine that an angel made a clerical error.  And I even have a limited purpose – I work in a cat sanctuary but that still doesn’t mean that I belong.

And maybe belonging is overrated anyway.  As Groucho Marx said, ‘I wouldn’t want to be a member of any group that will have me as a member.’ Outsiders are often catalysts for change and I am proud to count myself as one of them.

12 Responses to “About”

  1. readnshare Says:

    .I’m having difficulty making sense of this.


  2. gfggdj Says:

    go get a life or get laid.whatever.


  3. DeeDee Ramona Says:

    I think it’s wonderful that you work in a cat sanctuary. Cats are fab.


  4. herr hermann Says:


    Hey man, stop being a fucking twat. I don’t know much about this girl but I can relate because she’s obviously in an extreme amount of pain, and so am I. I think cunt-goop like you are the kind of people who have terminally easy-ass lives, and you look down of people like her and me because you don’t understand what it means to REALLY SUFFER.

    Suffering to you is “Whah whah, daddy only bought me the red corvette instead of the blue one, whah whah.”

    And your type is not wanted here. Evidently you have a lot of time to waste, going to blogs and harassing the authors. How about you take the time you spend laying your fat ass in bed and not having a job and watch porn or something. I think YOU need to get laid.


  5. inspectorgadget Says:

    I rescued a cat from the street at the scene of an incident I was attending. His name is battlecat and he settled in at home just fine. I think your writing is excellent. Best Wishes.


    • Louise Says:

      Thanks. That’s a really sweet story. I love rescue cats. My last cat just walked in and made herself at home. I once had ambitions to be a police officer. Deep down I knew I couldn’t cope with it – I don’t have enough self control or self-discipline. My long term ambition is to be an RSPCA inspector but I have to learn to swim fifty feet fully clothed before I apply. I start learning to swim today.

      There have been some compelling posts from you recently about the state of The Swamp in Ruraltown. Please remember though that some of the residents of this place may have been seduced by The Right to Buy Policy and are trapped there along with the less desirable elements. This is the situation my parents, who have worked all their lives are in and we don’t know what to do to help them. But it reassures me that people like you exist. On the basis of ‘The Rich Girls Are Weeping’ and your recent output alone, you could give up your job today and write for a living but I don’t think you want to do that. You seem like the kind of person who holds out to the very end.

      Best Wishes Back


  6. namelessneed Says:

    first thing I can think to say (my favorite poem to myself and others when they need it) is “Strength to You”
    I’m sorry yr not near happy (I suspect that we good people deserve to enjoy our joy)
    I enjoy reading yr work/ please Keep on


  7. moshepitrorix Says:

    i’m pretty much sure you are not right in this issue, it’s already known fact that learning is beond everything.

    לימודי Silverlight בגרות בהיסטוריה


  8. Kelly Says:

    Dear Louise,

    As the media intern for a non-profit focusing on mental health advocacy, I recently came across your blog in my online search for mental health resources and believe there is an excellent opportunity for cross-promotion between our Web sites.

    Peers Envisioning and Engaging in Recovery Services, or PEERS, is a consumer-run agency that is leading the innovative Social Inclusion Campaign in Alameda County, California. The mission of the campaign is to promote social inclusion of and end stigma and discrimination against individuals with mental health issues.

    One way we hope to promote social inclusion is by asking members of the community to make a personal commitment to end mental health stigma. By taking the “Stigma Stops with Me” Facebook pledge on our website (http://www.peersnet.org/pledges/makepledge) or on our Facebook page (http://www.facebook.com/pages/PEERS-Peers-Envisioning-Engaging-in-Recovery-Services/82259569303), you will be bringing people together to combat mental health stigmatization and advocate for the betterment of the community as a whole. We also welcome any friends, family, or colleagues you have who may be interested to pledge as well.

    In addition, we are interested in placing your link and logo on the PEERS Web site as a “Community Partner” at http://www.peersnet.org/partners. In return, we would appreciate a PEERS logo and link placement on your site if you are able.

    Thank you, and I look forward to the opportunity of working together!


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  10. Michaela Says:

    You have to block out the past. Live in the here and now.


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