I am so afraid. It’s only going to get worse, isn’t it? I can feel myself slipping away. I dreamt that I was drowning. Someone held out their hand but when I grasped it they wrenched it away and I was sucked back into the water. Not all mental illness is treatable. They should stop pretending it is. It gives people false hope. Please someone make it stop. I am terrified but I have no reason to be. Where is it coming from? This world is not my home. The voice in my head tells me that I am an abomination. I can see why you would want to believe that I brought this upon myself. I think it’s only going to get worse. But you cannot commit suicide without grievously wounding other people. As Donne said ‘No man is an island entire of itself’ although God knows I’ve tried to be.
No Man is an Island